A Weird of Me

Usually, when people meet their friend or even best friend, expressing happiness will be natural for them to show it to each other. However, this seems to be different when I meets someone who I considered as my "comrade". Whenever I met the person, while there are some friends around, I set a poker face unconsciously. I was pretending to be "common" me, ignoring the person. To be honest, deep inside my heart (bwooo), I was extremely happy and so grateful (Alhamdulillah) to see him in a good shape. It's been a long time since we spent time together, I want to do that again. However, I felt that this friendship isn't going well. I wish that there will be a time for us to meet personally, to give me a moment to say sorry, and having fun again. Even this bond isn't as tight as before, I was grateful to have a friend like you.